Day Two of the Golden Shower, Cross Dressing Saga


When Michael came into my life last August no one could have told me this would be the outcome of my life. Each day the good memories are pushed further and further into the back of my mind. It is bad enough he lied and cheated on me with multiple women while we were together, but the things I continue to learn in the aftermath are astonishing. I find it hilarious that I was treated as the topic of a scandal when in reality he is the source and continues to be the source of scandal.

I never set out to hurt Michael. Yes I have said things in anger, but at the end of the day I have not betrayed him in any way shape or form like the most recent events involving Kim Petro. Anyone close to me can tell you that I have always had melt downs on social media with my relationships. This is nothing new or exclusive to Michael Phelps.

My coming into the limelight was brought on by the media seeing me leave his house multiple times on September 30, 2014. I had been involved with Michael for 6 weeks prior to this happening and he told me our relationship was in tact before leaving for rehab. Prior to his DUI no one other than friends close to us knew we were seeing each other.

I said from the beginning after the National Enquierer story came out that the reason we were not together had nothing to do with me, the publicity or my past. With each new woman and scandal that comes out about him it reinforces the truth that I have been speaking all along.

I was forced into the public eye. I lost my successful career because of the actions of one man, Michael Phelps. I told my story in mid November because the tabloids were going to run some version of it regardless of whether I cooperated or not.

Michael and Octagon were fully aware way in advance of everything that was coming. I gave them options in the beginning of October to squash all of this in its tracks and they refused.

I have done nothing wrong and I will not accept the blame in any of this. I fell for a man based on lies. Lies that continue to unfold to this day.

I have been asked in the last 24 hours for comments and interviews across the globe based on the National Enquirer story. I knew about this woman and I know about many others. I only know of one other girl that felt the same as me that she was in an exclusive relationship with him. All the others knew of other women or relationships and still chose to lie down with him, Nicole Johnson included.

I don't feel sorry for her in any way. She knew what she was doing when she agreed to this arrangement and with the help of Octagon set this all in motion to try and erase me. I am the most normal woman in his life. LOL

So what, he likes fetish. There is nothing while we were together I wouldn't explore and let him do with me. Thats what you do when you care about someone and have trust and intimacy. I think it's wrong that all of this is coming out this way in a paid transaction encounter.

I made an adult film based upon our love affair and it was that. Michael Phelps never fucked me. I lost my career because of his actions on September 30th. Everything I do now is to secure my future and be happy and believe in love again.

The path that members of the Phelps family have chosen in chastising and publicly trying to humiliate me are unacceptable. They are furthering hate and discrimination against intersex and people dealing with any kind of gender challenge since I have been portrayed in the media of being every gender variation known. They have helped facilitate that it is not ok to be with someone that doesn't fall within the perfect parameters of gender roles that are antiquated. They know the truth and still choose to play along with these Octagon games.

If people currently close to Michael cared about his best interest they would advise him to retire and not compete anymore. Being in competition and the public eye fuels this desire by the media and public to dig into his private life and expose more and more. If he was no longer in the public eye interest in what he does privately would go away. Unfortunately that is not good for the business of paying family members' salaries and Octagon and revenue for branding with sponsors.

So here we are, him engaged to his beard, Nicole Johnson, 3 months after him and I ended. People are wishing him well like this is a beautiful relationship. I hope Marc is laughing and finding genuine joy in this moment. As long as he continues to lie and deny what him and I had I have no choice but to go on doing what I do and making a living and rebuilding a life he destroyed. An interviewer asked if I would take him back and I paused. That pause spoke volumes, but that is not healthy in any way. I miss the man I knew, but that man doesn't exist and I don't know if he ever really did. The man that portrays him in Going for the Gold shows the loving, warm side that I knew. That is all that remains.

When Madonna came out with Living For Love it was the perfect soundtrack to my relationship with Michael. Then when I tried to kill myself over the comments of Howard Stern on February 23rd I had Joan of Arc on repeat. It tells the story of my life with the media and me dealing with my past again in my present. In those last moments before my mind slipped into oblivion I thought of Michael and when things seemed perfect and I was the happiest girl in the world. Thankfully God had another plan and I woke up the next day against all odds. I forgive Michael for what he did to me, but I will never forget. Other members of the Phelps family have been maliscious and deliberate in their actions, so no forgiveness for them. When Michael left Horseshoe Casino that night, backpack in tow and over $20,000 down and pissed off it was not his intention to hurt me or anyone else.

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